1. My dad was admitted to hospital on Saturday. He has gone through (successfully) a bunch of tests but we now know that he is going to have to have heart surgery. We are just waiting to get the date – most likely next week. Sad.
2. I have gone through the usual emotions of sadness, anger, hope, resignation etc. My family doesn’t deal with these kinds of things well (i.e. let’s not talk about it and maybe it will go away) so I have been ensuring that I at least try to talk about what is doing on – good or bad- and deal with the stress in my own way. Call me selfish I don’t care but getting out for a run is the best thing I can do right now. I’d explode otherwise. I’m also pretty proud that running is my go to stress reliever – not food, not tv, not wallowing etc. Sad/Happy
Post run Sunday – 17km of heat, humidity and solitude. There were tears, yelling and singing on that run…good thing I was alone.
3. My pops was doing well in the hospital and chatting up all the nurses so I went ahead with my plans to race last night. I needed to do it for me and ran with him in my thoughts…and busted out an almost 4 min PB. Though it is still 3 min away, I have the hour mark in my sights for a 10km race. Happy.
The hubs was nice enough to come along and take some photos of my sweaty self. I’m surprised I could even smile in the first pic, this was at the finish line and breathing was a challenge!
4. Waiting to hear when the operation will be scheduled is brutal. The operation itself is going to be stressful. Knowing that this is the best thing for my dad and the only way he can have some quality of life for his remaining years is my hope. I am making this my Happy.
Hit me up…what’s your Sad/Happy right now?